I wish i wasn't me ....

Sometimes I feel like no one cares.
Sometimes I feel like no one is there.
Sometimes I want to kill myself.
Sometimes I think I need some help.
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone.
Sometimes I'm in an empty zone.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not alive.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm deprived.
Sometimes I think the world should end.
Sometimes I think I have no friends.
Sometimes I want to make them see,
that sometimes I wish I wasn't me...

:'( :''( :'''(

I lay there at night, trying to fall asleep
But each time I close my eyes
Memories of you flash through my mind
But then I open my eyes
and welcome myself back to reality
Because I know now, you and I weren't ever
really meant to be.

Memory

You walked in to my life,
But just like that,
You walked back out,
Still you will be a memory,
A memory that I have created in my mind,
Still you will be a memory,
A memory that will always be locked,
Away in my heart and my mind,
I will always have a memory of you in my heart,
And I will always carry that picture of you in my mind,
Still you will be a memory.

It's Tough to Be a Teenager

It's tough to be a teenager today, no one really knows
What the pressure is like in school, this is how it goes.

I wake up every morning, and stare into this face
I wanna be good lookin', but I feel like a disgrace.

My friends they seem to like me, if I follow through with their dare,
But when I try to be myself, they never seem to care.

My mom, well she keeps saying, I gotta make the grade
While both my parents love me, it slowly seems to fade.

It seems like everyone I know is trying to be cool
And every time I try, I end up just a fool.

I've thought about taking drugs, I really don't want to you know
But I just don't fit in, and it's really startin' to show.

Sometimes I really get so low, I want to cash it in
My problems really aren't so bad, if I think of how life's been.

Sometimes I'm really lost, and wonder what to do
I wonder where to go, who I can talk to.

It's tough to be a teenager, sometimes life's not fair
I wish I had somewhere to go, and someone to CARE.

Lost...

Lost in a world, that scares me to death,
Lost in a crowd I’m losing my breath,
Lost as a kid, lost as an adult
I feel everything is falling apart and its my fault
Lost as a person, cant find my way
Lost in life ...............every day,
Lost in worry, Who am I?
Do you think ,I look like a lie ?
Lost to Kindness, Lost to Love
Lost in the sky, Like a lonely dove
Lost in thought which I shouldn’t do
It Winds me up, I can’t get through
Lost to comfort all kind words
Lost to advice that isn’t heard
Lost to those who really care?
All these people always there
Lost in Me, I need a break
Lost in wonder which road should I take?
Lost in a place I don’t know well
Where are you now? There’s no one to tell
Lost in mind,
Lost in soul
Lost memories, there just a hole
Lost my love, lost my place
Still yet I’m full of hate
Lost in boredom think I’ll leave
There’s a lot in life I need to achieve.

I Need You Now

My friend, I need you now--
Please take me by the hand.
Stand by me in my hour of need,
Take time to understand.

Take my hand, dear friend,
And lead me from this place.
Chase away my doubts and fears,
Wipe the tears from off my face.

Friend, I cannot stand alone.
I need your hand to hold,
The warmth of your gentle touch
In my world that's grown so cold.

Please be a friend to me
And hold me day by day.
Because with your loving hand in mine,
I know we'll find the way.

i just love being human.....

I never wanted wat I got and I never got what I wanted….that is why I used to cry.

I don’t have glitters in my life
Nor I have a good caring wife…

I JUST want to catch flies
whether its butterfly or a dragonfly...

why do i always cry.....
cry for what i have and cry for what i dont have
Lets borrow some smiles and hire some happiness in this deadly cruel world
where asking for love alwayz remained unanswered..

i am not that solitary reaper who is singing with her solitude

nor m that kid who is happy with his paper kite in the air

it takes a cost for everything,

a cost for love

a cost for care and

And the most expensive of all is the cost of showing kindness..



i always feel unconfortable with rich ones And nor i want the company of poor....

i want a silver spoon in my mouth or a golden one...

i just need one

as everyone is running for...i suppose...

running is a good exercise n what if it becomes habit...???

i want this along with that...

a green paddy field full of water

n a shining glass multi storey building....

and a royal chariot

with a shining ferrari

i just want everything

i just love being human being.....

No Matter What Happens

I remember a time when each day was long,
When the world was a playground and my life a song,
And I fluttered through years with barely a care,
Ignoring the future and what waited there.

School was intriguing and filled with delights.
I played away daytimes and dreamed away nights.
My parents assured me I had nothing to fear,
And that no matter what happened, they'd always be there.

Little I knew of a world outside home,
Where tragedy, sorrow, and murder could roam.
All I saw were blue skies, rainbows, and stars.
I looked past destruction of buildings and cars.

As a child, my biggest concern was just me;
I had to be happy, I had to be free.
And if I was content, I would not shed a tear,
And no matter what happened, I still would be here.

But as I grow up, darkness starts to set in;
My bright world has turned into concrete and tin.
I now see the violence I looked past before;
My friends start to die and my heart hits the floor.

Deadly diseases claim people I love,
There are landfills below me, pollution above me.
I often think back to when life was a game.
But no matter what happens, it can't be the same.

There are days when I just want to break down and howl,
To give up clompletely, to throw in the towel,
But I hold my head high and I push my way through.
I have too much to give and so much to do.

And I make a vow that, though it'll be hard,
I'll go on with a smile and play every card.
I'll give all I can, help others and love.
No matter what happens, life will bloom again,
And the strength I don't have will come from above.

So come, take my hand, and through darkness we will sail--
If we all join together, we never can fail.
We'll remember to care, remember to feel,
And no matter what happens, our world we will heal.

Myself !!

I have to live with myself, and so
I want to be fit for myslef to know
I want to be able as days go by
Always to look myself straight in the eye;
I don't want to stand, with the setting sun,
And hate myself for thing I have done.
I don't want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself,
And fool myself, as I come and go,
Into thinking that nobody else will know
The kind of man I really am;
I don't want to dress myself up in sham[hoax].
I want to go out with my head erect,
I want to deserve all man's respect;
I don't want to look at myself and know
That I am a bluffer, an empty show.
I can never hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see,
I know what others may never know;
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and guilt-free.

A Faith

You are mine forever
I am yours forever

I'll call u from dusk
I'll call u till dawn
arrive in your dreams
fly off when you yawn.

A wish in my fist
I dreamt oft of you.
The dazzle in your eyes
is definitely for me.
The sizzle in your movement
is somehow calling me.

You know what...!!!!
I had struggled a lot
for these collyrium eyes,
for these rosy lips,
and now i ma the lord...!!!
The lord of your heart
the lord of its beat.

i cant put flowers on your way
nor i can pull moon in the day
but one thing is sure
and you admit today
that
You'll remain mine forever
I'll remain yours forever....

My first Post , A poem from my collection.. -- Somewhere in the middle...--

A journey lies ahead

for all teenagers today.

A journey to adulthood,

our youth to kiss away.

But as we go we find ourselves

at a truly awkward stage.

We're partial,unripe,sketchy and crude

at this tender age.

We're old enough to make a choice

yet still young in many ways.

Too young to pack our bags and go,

too old to want to stay.

Young enough for fun and games,

too old for carefree lives.

Young enough for hopes and dreams,

yet for reality we strive

Old enough for heartfelt pain,

too young to find the cure.

Too old for childish ways of past,

too young to be mature.

Old enough to fall in love

and give our heart way.

But , still young to understand

just why we feel this way.

We're trusted,loyal,proud and true

yet scolded,sneered and scorned.

Between the role of adult and child,

we are somewhere torn.

Like an uncompleted work of art,

we're awkward, un-sure, half-baked.

But be patient please

for we're on our way

to becoming something great.